This body of work reflects on my queer adolescence in Malaysia within the setting of the annual August haze. The source of the annual haze is a direct result of an inherited, colonizer-era, practice of slash-burnings as a fast and cheap way to clear lands for palm oil fruits (often picked by unpaid women). Laws that discriminate against the LGBTQ community in Malaysia were also laid down by the colonizers, and those laws are still in practice today. Within this tapestry of personal girlhood memories from school and the context of ecological and societal cultures that shaped me, I draw parallels between the myth of inevitable ecological destruction and the systematic destruction enacted towards women and the queer community enforced by a history of colonization. This works manifest as mysterious rituals and charts, secret meetings between the girls, goddess iconography and broken creatures borne from the haze.